Who says the American Dream is the way to be (part 3)
Before we begin, did you read blog 1 & 2 for the full story?
Our teacher training weekly curriculum: (roughly)
5:30 am Wake up
5:50 am Grab some tea or coffee
6-7:30 am Yoga
7:30 am Breakfast
8:30 am Anatomy
10:30 am Yoga Postures/Teacher Training
1:30 pm Lunch
2:30 pm Philosophy
4:30 pm Mantras
6:30 pm Chakras
7:30 pm Dinner
8:30 pm Homework
9:00 pm Light out
Somewhere in between you managed to get your homework done, shower, and sleep. Clearly, there was very little time for yourself.
How will this schedule allow me to achieve my goal of rediscovery?
Before attending this training I knew:
I’ve lost faith in society.
I don’t like to be touched.
I’m quiet, but very critical.
I basically built a little box to keep myself safe from others, so how could these walls hinder my spirit when I’m so independent?
By week one all walls were broken, to say the least.
We quickly discovered that this was a safe place to shed our layers. Deep stories of pain and struggle, loss and loneliness, broken hearts, broken egos, and emptiness and yoga-inspired us to see some light. Tears flowed regularly as we quickly realized that we were all on similar journeys. If we knew it or not, we were all here to deepen our understandings of ourselves. Once we accepted that, then the real shift began.
I can easily say I connected with every student and teacher on an intimate level.
Every morning we greeted each other with hugs and kisses.
We were shoulders to lean on when breakthroughs were made.
We held hands and massaged one another back to ease.
We understood each other.
Did I enjoy hugs?
Can strangers be kind?
What I began to learn.
I don’t like showing signs of weakness. One meditation led me to tears, but I couldn’t share them with the group, yet. I had busted out of the room to walk it off. My body practically overheated until I did. Why couldn’t I allow myself to be vulnerable in front of others? Why did I have to keep this wall of protection up?
I’m a hard Pitta. For you non-yogis, that's type-A. I already knew this, but began to see how it is affecting how I handle situations.
By week two our bonds and routines grew even stronger. Our practices had an invigorating energy and we connected freely, without judgment.
You may think that schedule would be stressful. Yet, no matter how tired you were, you woke up with a smile on your face. What is there to complain about? I woke up every morning to love, happiness, and beauty. Stress was non-existent.
I repeat NON-EXISTENT!
I don’t think I’ve EVER said that.
The 26 of us were becoming family. I had never felt so comfortable with a group strangers before in my life. There was no reason for anyone to hide who they were because we all accepted our paths openly.
How can complete strangers see the light in one another when those you have known for a lifetime cannot?
Your heart had no choice but to open to this beauty. By the end, I fully released my fears and judgments allowing others to see my pain and console it. I gave love and equally received it.
And then it clicked.
I was so caught up in handling things on my own that I pushed loving energy away. I gave and gave to the ones I let in, but never let them give back. I hid behind my introverted mindset, safe from the good and the bad, only showing strength and never weakness.
All I needed in order to heal was to genuinely allow others in.
Allow for raw human connection.
Showcase honest compassion and allow to receive it in return.
With that, I can freely open up my heart, my voice, and love me for me-- unapologetically.
My walls didn’t protect, they blocked my shining light.
We are all on this journey of happiness, aren’t we?
Here’s the secret: no THING, PERSON, WANT, DESIRE can bring it to you. Simply listen inward and be surprised that it was there all along waiting for you to turn it on. Let it Shine.
And when you do, you will see, THAT’S THE AMERICAN DREAM.
Many thanks to all the beautiful souls and teachers that helped me realize I was and am complete.
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